Tuesday, 29 December 2009

Can I undo it PLEASE!!

I am sorry all, I have lost my writing appetite. My niece is sick... That has been confirmed by many doctors now. She is fragile and tiny. She is 8 months old yet unable to hold her neck still. She should have started crawling now but she is even unable to sit. Just the same sympotms her deceased brother suffered from..Heridatry issues. You can't imagine how much going back home after work scares me!! I can't stop the images of what if I came to the house and heard her death news?! What would happen to my poor loving sister whose wounds haven't recovered yet from the death of her own son who died 10 years ago!! Would she be insane again?! Would the black clouds visit our house again, after my brother my two grandparents, my grandmother, my nephew, my dad, and my two uncles loss?!! Is there more to come?!

I accepted low salary at a tiring and blood sucking job just because I want to escape the gloomy atmosphere at my house. Don't get me wrong, my family is really patient and they don't complain but what kills is that each one of us is quiet, just waiting, just thinking, and just dreaming and praying.

In my last post, I talked about "Sara and Summer", the two lovely girls who study in my Grade 1 class and how torn they are because of their ill-relationship between their mum and dad which ended up with nothing but divorce.

Sara hasn't spoken a word since she joined school. If I pushed her to talk, she would whisper in my ears. Even her friends keep on asking why doesn't she talk!!

Summer had been more active than Sara, at least her voice was heard. However, Summer has totally collapsed since last month. I would call her name 5 times but she wouldn't reply as if she had just blacked out. Her behaviour changed for she became so quiet, she shivers all the time, and she just draws on her desk.

Her case has been occupying my mind as well as the other teachers. The only thing I feared was she being sexually harrassed. I took her aside one day, gave her some candies and asked her if there is anybody who touches her in her special area. She said yes.. but then said no.. I didn't know what to believe for she is a kid and sometimes kids would misunderstand things or get perplexed.

I met her dad today, sorry for my language but her dad is such an ass!! I don't know how I managed and didn't hit him in the face today.!!

He hasn't found a job till now, he has moved to Saudi for 6 months now and is still unemployed!! His dad is retired and his mum calls her grandchildren "donkeys" since they are the result of their stupid dad's behaviour. His 2 girls come to the school, spend 7 hours every day with one sandwhich and one juice only!! My other students' mums called me saying that their daughters put extra food for Summer and Sara to eat because they are always hungry. Today I told him that even if you're poor, a bag of sandwhich which contains 8 sandwhiches costs only 1 Riyal!! So, putting 2 sandwhiches won't bother!! Imagine what he said " No, it's not poorness but 1 sandwhich is enough for a 30 minute break"!!I told him they are only 7, they run and play and need energy and they finish this sandwhich in the 1st 5 minutes!!

I informed him about Summer's behaviour and how I am really worried that the child might be sexully harrassed. Imagine what he said!!?! He said "Yes, they had been.."!! Not only Summer, Sara and David were molested too..

I swear my blood was boiling and I stood up planning to hit him or even spit on his face!! He hardly spoke after I pushed him to and told us their tragic story..

Their mum was an addict, alchoholic, and moreover a prostitute.. The social service in US has arrested the mum and started an investigation about the 2 girls and their brother David. He had a restrain order from the court he said that he shouldn't approach them!! I told him how come you're restrained when you're their own father!! Did you honestly molest them?! He said No, but you know how americans treat Saudis!! I was like, come on! I can't buy this crap! Even if you have been ill-treated by the US, didn't you go back to the Saudi Embassy and ask for help?! He said yes but they didn't do anything!!


They were sexually harrassed but they don't know by who...


I can't write anymore...I am sorry..

20 comments:

Standy said...

i am honeslty speechless..
i cant believe this!!

sub7an allah..

Saudi Dawn said...

*silent tears and a broken heart*

Nani_37 said...

I'm sorry about your niece :( .. I pray she gets better .. Allah la ytheegkom 7znaha

I can't believe that guy .. I can't imagine how you have felt having him right in front of you, i'm beyond infuriated just sitting here and reading this .. I just don't understand, can't anything be done for them ?? Or just because he's "the dad" he gets to do anything .. the bastard

C said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your niece but babe hang in there, you have all our support! Love you!!

About the two pity lil girls, gosh I wish I could so something!

Anonymous said...

Cant the school or teachers organise sum sort of counselling for the poor girls?im cryng for them here,wish i could adopt them,and give them a better,happier life,which they deserve.its my dream to one day open an orphanage....sister from south africa

Bliss said...

So sorry to hear about that :(
Allah yshfeeeeeha!!

Puça said...

I am very sorry for your niece's news. Shall pray for her.

About those two girls..can't believe what kind of father they have...

Eternally Distracted said...

Hi there. I originally popped by because I had looked back at my very first post and realised that you were my first ever commenter - I was coming to say thank you...

However, now I am here and have read your post my heart goes out to you, your family and those poor, poor children. I can only echo what everyone else has said.

I hope that things are now looking up for you all.

A Human said...
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A Human said...

about ur house thing; just be active add some light to their lives.. don't run away because u are increasing that black cloud by doing that.
and about sara & summer ..That's really really SAD ...
okay i think what u should do now is that let them forget about it ... i mean if u have a good and active student ... let him or her sit with them . so at least they have a reason to talk ... you can't erase their memories but u can cover it ... thank god that u r their instructor .. may god bless u

Stimulus said...

Dear God you have a tough life going there..

Be strong, try to be proactive for the 2 girls' case and don't let the father get away with it if you have the tiniest feeling it's him..

About your niece, may Allah help her, it all depends on Him.

The Extravagate said...

7sbya allah wa n3ma alwakil

When you think of it ur sister who would do anything to have her baby healthy and that basterd who have healthy kids is starving them and growing the sickness in them.. life is a test to your sister and those poor kids

7mdella 3a kl7aal
alla yshfe ur niece and yhde the dad for the sake of these kids or yrzghom 7d who can take care of them

♥ Braja said...

Holy crap....

Jewaira said...

I hope matters change for the better in all cases. Sending you healing thoughts

Pásik Kroch said...

I think you showed very big degree of self-control when did you met their dad. Frankly I would been not so patient and calm.

Faith said...

You've been gone for so long and I miss you!

I was thinking about you and hope all is well with you <3

林翊娟 said...

IS VERY GOOD..............................

Sami Saayer said...

is there anything that can be done for them? financially or otherwise? let me know. i can render my support.

just another girl... said...

pls update..i hope you and your family are ok insha'Allah

Anonymous said...

PLEASE WRITE AGAIN, WE ALL MISS YOU!! How are you and family keeping? 'RAMADHAAN MUBARAK'!:-*