Tomorrow, I am submitting my resignation. I don't know what tomorrow holds but I have no interest in going back or changing my mind whatsoever.
I wanna be the old cheerful me. I wanna get back in touch with my friends like before. I have been lately withdrwan from all the people I love for one reason only which is me being depressed all the time. I am a very frank person but when it comes to work I have this closed mouth. I didn't wanna call my friends and start whining and complaining that's away I clicked the pause button in my life.
I was fearing mom's response because I am her pride and joy. I tried my best not to cry when telling her about my decision but I couldn't. She supported me and told me that God will give me a better job, a job that appreciates me and a very organized one too.
I know I gave up my attitude of not resigning before finding another job but what I have seen made me change my mind. I hate hypocrisy, lies, and conspiracies and all that happen before me every day. I even fear checking my email because a new problem might arise which will put me into a deeper phase of depression more than the one I am already having.
I will be working with them during my month notice which will start tomorrow and meanwhile continue my job searching. I don't care about how much salary I might get. I am just looking for an organized place that appreciates me.
I am not sad. I am relaxed and content like I have never been. I am positive that I will get a better job soon :)